Fifty days... what?! Jesse says it's too long. I say it's not enough time! I keep having dreams that our wedding will be a total flop. I know that's normal, but it sure sucks to wake up after you dreamed your future father-in-law didn't make it, no one will listen to your speech at your own wedding, and everyone starts to leave just as the dance is about to begin. Yes, all that happened in one little dream. Another recurring dream is not being ready. In the last one it was the day of and I didn't have my hair or makeup done and the ceremony was about to begin. These are my bridal dreamland woes - oh my!
I know it will be okay. Sometimes I'm prone to stare at vintage wedding blogs and compare our own ideas and feel worried it won't be cool enough. At the end of the day, however, what really matters? We're getting married before God, with our friends and family, and then we'll head downstairs for good food, drink, hangouts and tunes. If I keep telling myself these things eventually I will start to believe them!! Oh to be a bride...
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Wedding plans had been on hold for the past couple of weeks while we packed up and moved me into what will - in 50 days - be our apartment. Now that things on the apartment end are starting to settle a little more, I'm hoping to get cracking on the rest of the wedding details. The biggies to do are shoes, hair and flowers. Some other details include finalizing guest book ideas, gathering more small mason jars, guest lists and well, many little details, really. People have offered help, but I feel I'm too unorganized to get help at this point. I'm sure we'll figure it out eventually.
Beyond the wedding itself, we're trying to get more focused on actual marriage preparation. It's funny how easy it is to forget what all this wedding business is really about! Jesse and I both believe prepping spiritually, mentally and emotionally is vital to a healthy marriage. We're realizing how hard discipline is to come by in our lives; meeting with our church leaders - Jesse's priest and my pastor - should help to guide us as we head toward a life of love and friendship and more.
Time to call it a night. Peace and all the rest,
Kat.
